Gethsemane to Golgotha

First, let me apologize for it being an entire YEAR since my last update but something tells me that after this, you'll find it in your heart to forgive me. I haven't conducted a porn star interview since the Justin Slayer one FOUR years ago and while interesting and eye-opening, The Business is supposed to be all about the girls, right? Well, I happen to have been fortunate and blessed enough to have gotten ahold of THE girl in adult right now: Ms. Kristina Rose.

I contacted Kristina Rose back on CHRISTMAS DAY of LAST YEAR at the behest of a company that shall remain nameless to interview her for a magazine they were putting together for the upcoming AVN Awards Show and Adult Entertainment Expo. As with everything else in my life, things fell apart at the zero hour. But Kristina, trouper she is, kept her end of the bargain, regardless and was a gracious, humorous, candid, eloquent and extremely honest interview. What was originally intended to be a mere twenty questions on my part ballooned into what you're about to read. We've all seen the interviews in other magazines that almost seem as if they're either flat-out fraudulent, written by a man or that the subject isn't being themselves but instead a character. I assure you, that while Kristina Rose is a "character" in the best sense of the word for sure, this isn't a role she's playing. So without further adieu, I present to you CJ's Great Lost Interview with the One and Only Kristina Rose.

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CJ: What was your family life like? Do you consider your childhood happy? Would someone describe you as a wild or rebellious child?

KR: I think I grew up in a typical American family. My mother and father have been divorced ever since I could remember and they both remarried and had more kids. It was like I had two families. I felt lucky. Some kids only had one. I always remember being a happy child for the most part. I recall people saying I was shy, ambitious, unique and always daydreaming.


CJ: How old were you when you realized that, as far as your sexuality, that you were a little different from other girls your age? When did you lose your virginity? Do you remember it as being a good or bad experience?

KR: I think you always think you're different from everyone else when you first start discovering your sexuality. I don't necessarily think anyone really is though. I knew that my interest in sexuality at such a young age was a little different than most, but I think you always feel kind of weird about the whole thing no matter what age you discover your sexuality at.

I lost my virginity when I was 15 years old. I lost it to my little high school boyfriend whose wiener I named "The Walnut" because it looked like a third testicle. Needless to say, it wasn't a particularly thrilling experience and I didn't do it again until a year later. Ha, haa.





CJ: Was porn something you stumbled into or did you actually have aspirations on becoming a pornstar and sought out a way to get in the business?

KR: Porn was something that just kind of happened. Looking back now, I should have seen it coming. It was always around or involved in my life in some way or another. I have been a fan ever since the first time my dad told me not to watch channel 98 (black box porno channel circa 1994). I never really sought it out as an occupation. I just watched it, but after getting offer after offer and being such a big fan of it I decided to take the leap during a time in my life when I had nothing really going on. I needed to get another job so I could support myself and porn kept randomly coming up over and over again in my life so I decided to try it. It's not like I was a saint before I got in the biz so I figured why not get my jollies and pay my rent at the same time? It was the best decision I've ever made!


CJ: Why do you do porn, personally? Is it money or is there another driving, determining factor?

KR: This is that "which came first, the chicken or the egg" question. Obviously, the money is a big part of it. Anyone that says otherwise is an idiot and a liar. I was a slut before porn so it's not that I'm faking my sexuality. I just didn't really think I could get paid for that until I got offered to do porn. Then it just kind of made sense. Everything just came together. I love sex and I've always been fascinated by pornography and the different kind of sexual fetishes people have. I guess you could say I've always been sexual and the sexuality I exude got me the offers to do porn and the money is what got me to do porn and my natural sluttiness has made me a success in the game.


CJ: What do you like most about sex, on camera and off-camera? How would you describe your sex life off-camera?

KR: What I like about sex on camera is the game. We're all chasing after that perfect scene. When you do an amazing scene the feeling in the air is like a drug. Not just for the performers, but for everyone on set. It's electric! It gives you a high I could only imagine athletes and heroin addicts understanding.

My sex life off camera is very different from my sexual escapades on camera. In my private life when I have sex with someone there is usually feelings involved. I like certain things. I keep those things a secret. It's not that they're all very scandalous, it's just I like to keep some things private just for me. I can't give you guys everything. Some things I like to keep tucked away just for me and that's all I'm gunna say ;)


CJ: Despite being diminutive, you have an absolutely enormous personality. Do you feel as though men are intimidated by you?

KR: I don't feel like men are intimidated by me. Maybe I'm wrong, but I think that's part of my charm. I'm approachable. I'm that bario girl from around the way. The one you had a crush on but could still fart in front of.


CJ: Are you involved? What's the first thing you notice about a man? Would you be opposed to dating someone in the business?

KR: I'm seeing someone I like. The first thing I notice about a guy is his aura. I know that sounds weird, but I'm not a looks person. I always like people based off the vibes they give me, like how their presence changes the room. I am very opposed to dating within the industry. It's always a bad idea to shit where you eat.


CJ: I had the pleasure of meeting and kicking it with you at the end of '07, start of '08 when you were still brand new to The Business. Since then, I've watched your career literally explode in the following years: more box covers than I can count and eventually becoming Elegant Angel's Slutwoman . At what point did you personally feel as though you'd 'arrived' and weren't just another anonymous or disposable B-girl in the biz?

KR: For a long time I wouldn't allow myself to think I'm a big name or that I have "arrived". I was always afraid that if I admitted that, that it would all go away and I also feared becoming one of those girls that gets all big headed and refers to herself in the third person. Ha! I have always tried as much as possible to keep my feet on the ground and my head out of the clouds. But, I think after I got the "Slutwoman" title I felt the shift. It was an awkward feeling for me at first. I felt like if I acknowledged it that I would seem like one of those conceited girls I can't stand. I only just started allowing myself to embrace it as of recently. It's a good feeling and an odd feeling. People start to talk to you and treat you slightly different. In a good way and a bad way. I try to enjoy my accomplishments now rather than pretend they don't exist. It still makes me feel embarrassed when someone refers to me as a "big name" or whatever, but in a good way.





CJ: How do you deal with your current notoriety? When a fan recognizes you or stops you in public, how do you handle those situations? Are they flattering or creepy? How do you regard your online fans like ones who post obsessively about you on message boards or who follow you on Twitter? What do you think attracts your fans to you?

KR: It still feels weird to me when I get stopped at the airport or grocery store. I still can't believe people know who I am. Haa, haa. But I love it. Without my fans I wouldn't have the success I have now. You can give someone all the awards in the world and it doesn't mean shit, because at the end of the day it's the fans and people that buy our porn that matter. Sometimes fans are creepy. Sometimes they're sweet. It seems to be 50/50. I love all my fans. Those people are the people that pay my bills, in a way. They helped me gain the success I have now. I have nothing but love for my fans. Even the creepy ones. I think what attracts people to me is my realness. I don't care what people think of me. I don't pretend to be something I'm not. I'm not always put together just perfect like a model. I don't say what I should, I say what I feel and I don't hide behind an image my agent created for me. I am who I am take it or leave it and I think that's why people are attracted to me. I'm someone they can relate to because I have flaws. That and I think I just seem like a great lay. ;)


CJ: Who in the business do you admire or have a great deal of respect for? Who new do you see as having all the tools to go far or become the next big thing? Male, female or both. Do you watch your own scenes? Who is Kristina Rose's favorite porn star to watch?

KR: There's a lot of people I look up to and admire in the industry for different reasons. As a performer I've always really admired Annette Schwarz. She is one of those real people. There's no one like her. I also look up to and admire [Elegant Angel directrix] Mason . Her vision and how she captures scenes is amazing. She ignites something in every performer that she shoots. Porn is lucky to have her because in my opinion she's way beyond us. I also admire Belladonna as a performer and business woman. I like that she just does her and that's it. Take it or leave it. I admire Alexis Texas for the same reason.

For a while I've thought Asa Akira is one of those girls that was going to be the next big thing. I was bugging William H. [director at Elegant Angel] and Mason for the longest time telling them how great Asa is and that I thought she had something special. I also think Andy San Dimas is another girl to keep your eye on. As well as Ashli Orion. Ashli is one of the most underrated performers in the game. She deserves a lot more props.

I do watch my own scenes. I always have. I like to see what the finished product looks like and also I like to see why something got a good review or a bad review. If you don't watch your scenes I think you're really missing out on an opportunity to see how you can do your job better. I also like to jerk off to my favorite scenes from time to time. My favorite performer to watch is still Annette Schwarz. She's still my favorite.





CJ: Now be completely honest here and this is in no way meant to disregard or disrespect Tori Black's accomplishments but did you feel as though you should have won AVN's Performer of the Year last year? I mean, is that not a personal goal or is it for you, as a lot of people like to say, 'just an honor to be nominated'? I feel as though you're a strong front runner again this year so obviously not winning didn't diminish your value and it's rare for someone to have two such similarly strong years back-to-back like this.

KR: I did feel slightly snubbed last year because I didn't win ANYTHING I was nominated for and I (literally) busted my ass all year long, haaa, haaa, but it is what it is. We all want to win. We all think we were the best. We all want awards. The real winning is being nominated at all and that's what I try to remember.


CJ: Chemistry between stars is important. Who do you find sexy or feel you have the best onscreen sex with?

KR: Without even having to think, I know I have the best onscreen chemistry with Manuel Ferrara. I don't know what it is. There's just something about us. We just have something. Personally, we are very different people. But as soon as that camera is on it's like no one else in the world exists. We devour each other like animals and every time just gets better and better. Every scene I do with Manuel trumps the last. Sometimes I feel like maybe we were lovers in a past life or something. We just have a weird connection that neither of us can explain. I stopped trying to analyze it a long time ago and now I just enjoy it from time to time when I get the chance to work with him.





CJ: Seeing Sasha Grey's crossover/mainstream success and also being represented by Mark Spiegler (aka Shylock, Grey's agent), do you in any way envy her position or think that perhaps you can achieve the same things? Do you even want to? How much of your success do you attribute to his guidance?

KR: Mainstream success seems to be very important to a lot of girls. I never really paid too much attention to it, until more recently. After getting the opportunity to do a couple of mainstream projects I'm much more open to it now than I was a year ago. I like getting the opportunity to do something different. It's fun to break out of my comfort zone. I'm hoping this year that I'll get more opportunities to experience that.

I think Sasha Grey's success is very important for us girls in the industry whether you're trying for mainstream success or not. She is really showing the world that there is more to some of us porn girls than just the typical stereotypes people have about the industry.

I attribute a lot of my success to Spiegler. He really is a genius. I told him what my goals were when I first got with him and his guidance and connections have gotten me the success I was trying to attain. Spiegler is the most talented agent in the game. There's no question about it. I have big dreams for myself and it's no accident that I chose Mark Spiegler to be my agent. I know he is the one that can help me make my dreams a reality, because he already has.


CJ: In a land of fake blondes and even faker big tits, do you ever feel self-conscious about your looks or your body in any way? Is there anything that you would change? Is there anything anyone has ever pressured you to change?

KR: I feel more comfortable in my body now more than I ever have before. When I first got in the business I was told by many people that I would never be a big name because I didn't have the right "look." I never understood that and I went out of my way to prove people wrong. I wouldn't change one thing about my body. I love my body. If I wanted boobs I could have them, but then I wouldn't be me. I like me and I only want people to like me for me. From time to time someone will say something about my body or something I "should" change, but those people are usually idiots, so I just disregard them. I like how I look. I would fuck me and I have 40,000 followers on Twitter that feel the same way. ;)


CJ: Do you enjoy it when people praise your physical charms, such as your butt?

KR: Of course! It's feels good to be told you're pretty.


CJ: Porn is notorious for being known as a somewhat competitive, cutthroat environment, especially amongst the female talent. Clear the air on that: are women in the business generally supportive of one another or are they catty and manipulative? Have you ever had a feud or major disagreement with anyone?

KR: Women in the industry go both ways, but I will say that there are very few girls that have enough confidence to be supportive of other girls in the industry. Porn is not a team sport. It's every girl for herself. At the end of the day we're all trying to be the best, get the most work, get the best reviews, win all the awards etc. That's just how it is. I always admired the girls that went out of their way to help me out or clue me into things about the industry. I always wanted to be that girl rather than the kiss you in the face kick ya in the ass type. I think I've done a good job at that. What most girls don't think about is that although porn is not a team sport on the surface underneath all the competitive shit, it is. I feel like as women in this industry we should stick together but, that's easier said than done. Unfortunately, until women get over this lack of confidence and jealousy bullshit we'll always be one step behind the men.

As far as feuds and disagreements with other girls in the industry, yeah, I've had and still have beef with some girls. If you're a woman in the industry it just goes without saying that you've had at least one beef with one girl at sometime during your career. There's so many different types of people in this business, you're bound to run into a couple of idiots.


CJ: Fans always assume that everyone in The Business knows everyone else in The Business but we both know nothing could be further from the truth, even if The Business is, for the most part, a small and tight-knit fraternity; a band of outlaws, if you will. But please, take some time to describe your relationship with Alexis Texas.

KR: Alexis Texas and I have a very special bond. Words can't really describe it. Anyone that knows us knows that and Mason really captured it well in our movie "Buttwoman vs. Slutwoman." I think that even if we weren't involved in the industry that we would have found each other somehow. I recall the first time I really met her was on set for her first Buttwoman movie. Something just clicked on set that day and we've been best friends ever since. We're so different yet so much alike. A lot of people think it's funny that we're so close because we're so different. I feel like we balance each other out in a weird way. We have this unspoken understanding about things. I know she can look at me and know exactly what I'm feeling and I feel the same way towards her. What I have with Alexis is very special. I've never had a bond like that with someone before. I've had close friendships but this goes beyond that. It's a friendship, a love affair and a family all rolled into one girl that just so happens to have the most amazing ass I've ever seen. I love that girl.





CJ: What would you say to a young girl who watches you now and wants to do what you do? Do you feel your sexuality has empowered you or makes you a positive role model?

KR: That's always a question I have a hard time answering. Porn isn't for everyone. It's a lot harder than it looks. You really have to be a certain type of person to be able to do this job and be successful. I feel like porn has really taught me a lot about myself not just sexually, but (I know this is gunna sound so hilarious and corny buuut) I feel like I have learned a lot about life because of my involvement in the industry. I didn't really fully know who I was when I got started in the business and I can say now that I have a good idea who I am and I like the person that I have become. If you want to do porn I would suggest really thinking about it. Take your time. Because once you do it, you can never take it back. Your life does change. I've seen it turn out good and I've seen some people fall down a dark path. I've done both. The best advice I could give a girl that is thinking about doing porn is really think about the pros and cons and always go with your gut.


CJ: Finally, what would you say to porn's detractors? Those that think it objectifies women, that it takes the beauty out of sex or worse yet, that it is nothing more than legalized prostitution and that you're going to burn in hell for even participating?

KR: You're entitled to your opinion, but I would have to disagree at least for me. When I first got into the industry my self-confidence was as low as it could get thanks to mainstream media. Now I'm more confident than ever. Porn has helped me see myself in a different light. Porn is what you make it. If you take it to a dark place it's gunna be dark and seedy. If you take it to a good place you could have an amazing experience like the one I've had. It's all up to the viewer. It's all up to you.